Don't freak out. This isn't about how to make homemade laundry soap or something weird about cloth dipaers (although I am into both of those). This is something the Lord has shown me while staring into my washing machine while it was on spin cycle. Normally you cannot see the spin cycle unless you have a broken machine. As I do.
Anywho....Now the normal question is WHY??? Why am I staring at my spin cycle....I was having a...hmmmm mommy moment. I needed quiet, lonley place no one would step into and my children know if they stepped in there I would give them something to do.
I was neck deep in guilt over things that appear to be failure to me. When the children don't listen, when they fuss about not wanting to do a report. I consider them failures on my part. So I stepped into the laundry room and looked into my spin cycle and thought that was what my life felt like. Like I had no control over it and as I said these words "Lord DO YOU SEE ME?". I heard Him say that He saw me and I was right. I really DON'T have control over my life. (Pause) After I let that soak in there was some peace in that. If He gave me control, could I do better.... ummmm....NO.
There really is peace knowing that He knows the beginning and the end. The Word says in 2 Peter 1:3 His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. OK. So everything I need can be found in Him. I need to stop there. Stop trying to find my goodness or not so goodness in MY works, failures and such. I am beautiful to Him. That is all I need to know.
The Lord didn't stop there but I will....I have some other great wisdom that a sister shared with me during sweet prayer time at church tonight. It just confirms what the Lord is showing me about leaning on Him for ALL we need.
I know this post really isn't for you. It is for me. I just need a space to put it all down. If it blesses you praise Him. I am glad just to be a vessel.